HH Indradyumna Maharaja's Summer Tour, north coast of Poland
14 August 2003
This is dated 14th August, but I am beginning this entry on the 13th afternoon.
We are staying at a rented school building. I've been at this same school in
previous years' visits to HH Indradyumna Maharaja's summer tour on the north
coast of Poland. This morning, when we talked briefly, he told me that this
is the only school in the whole area that continues to avail itself to the devotees'
use. The other schools stopped renting to the devotees because of pressure from
the Catholic Church. Now Maharaja has put in a bid for the purchase of a piece
of land here, nearly 100 hectares square. The deal has not gone through yet
but he is confident it will. He intends to use this land as the permanent base
for the tour, and as a farm that will offer devotional engagement to the people
who become interested in Krsna consciousness as a result of their contact with
the tour.
Maharaja explained that he and Sri Prahlada Prabhu are committing themselves
more to preaching in Poland than ever before. This is because another "Math"--i.e.
a spiritual organization composed largely of devotees who've left ISKCON to
follow a Gaudiya Math sannyasi--has declared Poland a target for its
missionary work, which means it will mainly target ISKCON devotees, enticing
them to leave ISKCON and join them. This Math has in recent years made Berlin
its strongest center. This past summer they held a Rathayatra in Berlin on the
same day the ISKCON devotees held theirs.
I am happy Indradyumna Maharaja is meeting this challenge seriously. He is
an incredibly pure and dynamic preacher. Lord Krsna will surely shower His mercy
upon his efforts.
At the same time I am glad I am not on the GBC any more. Otherwise I would
be in the thick of this situation, as I was in 1995 and '96 when the inside-ISKCON
followers of this Gaudiya Math sannyasi first came to the GBC Body's
attention. In 1996 I was the chairman of the GBC, and apart from the Srila Prabhupada
Centennial celebrations, this was the leading issue of that year. For me, this
was the starting point of the depression that in 1999 became unbearable.
A couple months ago a bhakta wrote to the In2-MeC email address, wanting
me to explain why the GBC forbids ISKCON devotees to mix with the members of
that Math. I did not answer. It's not the purpose of this Web site to be a cyberspace
broadcasting station of official ISKCON policy. I've resigned from the GBC and
no longer care to put energy into arguments about managerial issues. In2-MeC
is not formally affiliated with ISKCON or the GBC and represents simply my own
personal views.
One of the reasons why I will not involve myself with managerial issues is
that experience has shown me again and again that a good number of ISKCON's
own devotees are quite naive. I don't see much reasoning behind such a question--"Why
does the GBC forbid ISKCON devotees to mix with the members of that Math"--other
than naivete. The questioner seems to assume that each of the different offshoots
of Srila Bhaktisiddhanta's original Gaudiya Math has a totally open door policy
toward the other offshoot Maths, and that only ISKCON keeps its doors shut.
This is not true at all. Two different Gaudiya organizations will not have a
close brotherly policy toward one another. One will not permit the other's preachers
to unconditionally give classes in its temples or to recruit devotees from its
congregation. It is considered a breach of Vaisnava etiquette for preachers
of one Math to use another Math's facilities for its own mission purposes.
Srila Prabhupada noted how naive his Western disciples were about such things,
so he personally laid down strict limitations on ISKCON's relationships with
other Maths.
I can understand this cunning P____ dasa has taken advantage of your
simplicity. So any one of my godbrothers cannot help me in this way of book
writing because they are unfortunate in the matter of preaching work. They are
simply trying to infiltrate our society to do something harmful by this attempt.
So please do not have any correspondence with this P____ or any of my godbrothers,
so-called. And do not do anything without consulting me. You can inform this
instruction to everyone and send back to me the sheets of corrections sent to
you by P____. I was very much anxious to know how P____ entered in our camp.
Now the matter is clear. Be careful for further dealings with such men. [To
Karuna Sindhu dasa, Nov. 9, 1975]
Regarding the Gaudiya Matha books being circulated there, who is distributing?
Who is sending these books? The Gaudiya Matha does not sell our books, why we
should sell their books. Who has introduced these books? Let me know. These
books should not at all be circulated in our Society. B____ V____ T____ is very
much antagonistic to our Society that he has no clear conception of devotional
service. He is contaminated. Anyway, who has introduced these books? You say
that you would read only one book if that was all that I had written, so you
teach others to do like that. [To Sukadeva dasa, Nov. 14, 1973]
That ISKCON's members are naive is well-known to other Maths. Therefore even
now some continue to try to recruit followers from ISKCON.
"Wise men have more to learn of fools than fools of wise men."
A subtle statement. One thing that needs pointing out is that by quoting this,
I am not indicating that among ISKCON devotees are some who deserve to be labeled
fools. Compared to the rest of the population of the world, every devotee is
the wisest of souls. But under certain circumstances, some ISKCON devotees have
been known to behave a little foolishly. Particularly when they come into the
association of those wiser than they.
You may ask, what more can a wise man learn from a fool than a fool can learn
of a wise man? The main message of the aphorism "Wise men have more to learn
of fools than fools of wise men" is that a wise man learns of the foibles of
human nature by observing foolish people. But in the process, a wise man can
also learn of his own darker nature. Since fools are by definition slow to take
up knowledge, a wise man who is not so patient and benevolent towards the foolish
can teach himself how to manipulate them, thus getting service from them without
having to really teach them anything.
This has happened in ISKCON too. In my opinion, when a guru like Harikesa
falls down and most of his disciples also leave ISKCON, then there couldn't
have been much real teaching and learning going on in this relationship. The
guru-disciple "package" must have been held together by something else
than the exchange of true knowledge. Otherwise, why did the majority of disciples
leave their positions of service to Krsna?
But a wise man need not learn only wrong things by associating with persons
less intelligent than himself. Srila Prabhupada said even a dog has something
valuable to teach a man. What is that? Faithfulness. This very Gaudiya Math
sannyasi to whom a number of ISKCON devotees have gone once said that
he learned guru-nistha (implicit faith in guru) from one of
Srila Prabhupada's prominent disciples.
In any case, this "ISKCON-vs.-Gaudiya Math" controversy is not a subject I
care to spend a lot of time on. To those who remain loyal to him, Srila Prabhupada
gives everything. That much is clear. And it is clear to me that he wanted to
spare his followers the confusion that accompanies controversy. Somehow or other,
in matters concerning the relationship of ISKCON devotees to the Gaudiya Math,
controversy inevitably raises its ugly head. Yes, for some the answer to the
controversy is to leave ISKCON. Their reasoning may not entirely be without
substance. It's true that ISKCONians have shown themselves to be less than wise
at times; unfortunately I do not find that those who leave to join the Gaudiya
Math (or who go off to form new institutions) become appreciably wiser.
What to do? Personally, I've turned my face away from the controversy. Speaking
of wisdom verus foolishness, there are things a wise man should be a fool about--which
means there are things that are not worth investing brain energy in. I'm too
foolish to understand, what to speak of try to heal, all the reasons why devotees
grow dissatisfied with their life in ISKCON and thus seek shelter elsewhere.
Not that I am wise, but it seems wiser to endeavor with renewed strength to
serve my Guru Maharaja than to speculate "Maybe go here, maybe go there." What
I know for sure is, Srila Prabhupada was the only disciple of Srila Bhaktisiddhanta
Sarasvati Thakura who risked everything to pull me out of hell. When common
people are rescued from danger they are usually dazed and speechless afterwards.
Similarly when I reflect upon Srila Prabhupada's mercy, I am overwhelmed and
stunned. Too overwhelmed and stunned to give much thought to the idea of going
to Gaudiya institutions other than ISKCON.
It is the plight of modern man to be uprooted from the traditional shelters
of ancient varnasrama society. He is restless and uncertain, always
anxious how to improve his situation. He is easily captivated by shining promises
of deliverance from the ills of today's world; and he is just as easily disappointed
when he realizes that deliverance comes at a price higher than he was prepared
to pay. I am convinced that modernity is a disorder of the mind. The controversy
between ISKCON and other Maths is, as I see it, a manifestation of this mental
disorder. I had occasion some years ago in Italy to discuss the controversy
threadbare with some persons who look to sadhus outside of ISKCON for
answers. This experience left me convinced that there is a psychological dimension
to the problem.
The personality of Kali exploits this mind disorder of modernity for his own
mission of infecting the world with quarrel. I think Indradyumna Maharaja has
the best answer. Never mind all the arguments, just stand and fight Kali by
preaching harder!
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Now it is 3:15 AM on August 14. Yesterday at the questions and answers tent
I did a yajna while Rocan did bhajan. A crowd of mostly respectful
people formed to watch. There were some quite nice questions. Also a few silly
ones.
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I began puja a little before 5:00 AM and finished a little after 6:30.
So sweet, this daily worship. It's from this seva to the silas
that I get a glimpse, just a small insight, into what "taking shelter" means.
Especially when I am afflicted by thoughts of my own disqualifications, as I
have been for the past couple of days. Here I am, writing of fools and wise
men, but my own foolishness ought to win a prize. Still the Lord has availed
Himself to me so that I may render Him some service.
One disqualification I have is lack of energy. "Those who are not enthusiastic,
lazy, lethargic," Srila Prabhupada states, "cannot advance in spiritual life.
Simply sleeping, they cannot make. One must be very, very enthusiastic, positive."
I'm often so very tired. A few days ago I mentioned here in my journal that
I thought I'd gotten heat stroke. I was woozy and had no physical energy. I
laid down at 7:00 AM and slept until 4:00 in the afternoon.
I woke up today feeling similarly. It's not due to lack of rest; I went to
bed last night before 9:00 PM and slept soundly. Now I feel slightly ill and
so very tired. This could be an affect of depression. But I am not suffering
from depression as I was several years ago. When I visit Ekatarina again in
October I will get some treatment for this energy-depleted condition.
I found enough energy to give the class this morning. Preaching helps me deal
with this vegetative condition I'm suffering from. Krsna supplies energy to
the preacher. Still, I need to pursue a general cure for this condition. It's
like the needle on my body's gasoline indicator is at best just a millimeter
above E (for empty).
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Photos! Yes, we do have photos today. The first three are from my recent stay
in ISKCON Wroclaw. You see the temple from outside, the beautiful Sri-Sri Gaura-Nitai
Deities, and a class I gave there. The next three are from my current stay at
the school Indradyumna Maharaja rented. You see me speaking about the 10 offenses
at an initiation Maharaja gave the first morning of my arrival there. The last
photo is taken in the questions-and-answers tent.
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